Always Trying
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About: Hello. This is a blog that is strictly about myself and my eating disorder, and how I am handling it. That may mean I am really struggling to keep my life together at some points, or I am trying to get better. I am always trying, either for perfection or perfection in imperfection. No matter how I'm feeling on a particular day, this blog may be a TRIGGER. If you trigger easily, beware. Also please note, I do not tag things with pro mia or pro ana or thinspo because I do not ever want someone else to go through what I am. This is not a blog to encourage people to starve or be sick, it's about myself and my feelings.

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It’s funny …

I was doing so well at being healthy.  I was working out everyday, eating food that was actually great for me, and focusing on being strong.  I felt great!

Now I feel terrible.  I’m exhausted.  I’m annoyed.  I’m sad.  My head and body hurts.  I’m not hungry but I’m not satisfied.

I hate this.  

  • eating disorder:why do you eat so much?
  • me:because fuck you that's why
And we have returned to the unhealthy drinking of coffee, binging on food when bored, and watching tv all day. Bah.

(via sweatembrace)

(via sweatembrace)

So I am trying to be healthy. It is difficult, but I’ve noticed something…

it is actually easier for me mentally and physically to work out everyday and eat healthy then it is to starve myself.  I feel a lot better.  I am proud of myself.  I mean, this is only day three of being a stronger, healthier person, but I still feel happy.  I haven’t attempted and succeeded at being a better self in like, 2 or 3 years.

Discovered a strawberry smoothie made with vanilla almond milk, ice, strawberries, and whey protein powder is delicious and gets me feeling good before my workout.  =]

“No great genius has ever existed without a strain of madness.” —Aristotle (via the-eden-express)

(Source: the-edenexpress, via shining-bunny)

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I’m really really really trying to get healthy.  It is really really really hard.  I’m waning, but not giving up.

I’m really really really trying to get healthy.  It is really really really hard.  I’m waning, but not giving up.

Focus your energy on adventures like this one.  Silfra, I’ll conquer you one day.

Focus your energy on adventures like this one.  Silfra, I’ll conquer you one day.